Exams Exams Exams..

This is seriously weird...I haven't been nervous about anything for quite some time...i mean...i kinda forgotten how being nervous would be like, and now..i've got 2 things i'm starting to feel way nervous about...1. IELTS...2. Dot Dot Dot...heheheh..The last time i sat for an exam was probably about 4 years ago...yup, that sounds about right...Hmm....for goodness sake, How bad could it be?..hehehehe....Actually quite bad, i've been up since 7am this morning trying to decide what baju to wear...to wear jeans?..or to wear slacks?..or should i just go with the safest, a baju kurung?..I kinda forgotten what Uni dress code is supposed to be....has it really been that long?...eRkk..is that an aging sign i detect?... :P Hope not~! hehehhehehe

But you know what?..feeling nervous for my exams is nothing compared to the nervousness that i feel for the other ..ermm...how should i put it?..upcoming event?..hehehehehe..that still doesnt sound right..but lets just put it at that for now...i probably have started counting god knows how many donkey days ago....and can u believe it...its just another 5 more days.. ...OH my GOd...hehehehe arghhhhhhhhhh....:P

Seriously, whenever i think about it... butterflies in my tummy, i feel like i can just faint anytime..etc etc..a whirlwind of emotions..excited, nervous, curious, a series of what ifs....but you know what???....i truly believe that its worth all this and more..hehehehe~

Okkkkkkk...its time to shower and baca all the ayat that i can think of..heheheheh...oh ya and also make the final decision of what to wear...have so many other things that i wanna share, but will keep it for later...;)

My baby is Back~!! QKG9386

My baby is BAckkkk~!!...Finally after the long 2 months! Now everything can be back to normal again...yay.. ;) Havent been able to do anything without him, i mean that may be exaggerating it a bit but seriously......it was lonely when he wasnt around. Now i can really start going to celebrity fitness...NO more excuses..Yay~!You know what, this incident really reminded me of the phrase " you'd never know what u're missing till is gone" or "you'd never really appreciate something and take things for granted unless its taken away from you.."

Which is true, i mean, i guess it applies to everything in life, like family and friends. In general a whole lot of us takes for granted that family and friends are always going to be by your side without realizing how much effort they make to keep us happy and to protect us and vice versa. I've come to think of it this way, if tomorrow never comes...would the other party, know how much you love and care for them and have you shown or done enough to make them know that?...You wouldn't want to leave the person clueless right?..especially when the person means the world to you.

I've also learned that the same concept applies to self, especially in my case, my health. It hit me when i fractured my right hand during the accident. Having a cast in one arm,the simplest daily activities that you don't even think of as being hard becomes a challenge. Honest truth, putting on a bra takes probably a minute usually, but with the cast, it took a whole 15 mins? I mean, all these while I've always taken for granted that my body would always function the same way it would regardless of how bad i treat it, ( excessive eating and minimal exercise) . For someone who is overweight, I've always been blessed in the sense that I've always had positive results for my medical check- ups. Never a problem. But then, how much longer can my body take this? Time to take some serious 360` change action. Don't want to live life in regret of something that i can control.

For those who stood by me through thick and thin, through laughter, giggles and endless sessions of tears and s.i.n.n.z.s sessions, and activities to conquer the world *wink*wink*, your my angels and would never ever take you guys for granted. If i do, slap me..hehe..and for he who's put sunshine and rainbow in my life...Thank you :)

Stumbled upon this song when i visited a friend's friendster page and don't know why it gave me this....tingling feeling?..heheheh..and reminded me of of course, that certain someone..hehehehhe...hmmm..if only i could upload the song onto this blog, so that everyone can listen to it... ;)

Hebat by Tangga

Bagaikan tetesan hujan di batasnya kemarau
Berikan kesejukan yg lama tak kunjung datang
Menghapus dahaga jiwaku akan cinta sejati

* Betapa sempurna dirimu di mata hatiku
Tak pernah kurasakan damai sedamai bersamamu
Tak ada yg bisa yg mungkin kan mengganti tempatmu

Reff:
Kau membuat ku merasa hebat
Karena ketulusan cintamu
Ku merasa teristimewa hanya
Hanya karena, karena cinta
Kau beri padaku sepenuhnya
Buatku selalu merasa berarti

Kini ku merasa hebat
Karena kau yang membuatku makin kuat
Jantungku bergerak cepat
Semua yg berat bisa lewat
Inikah cinta yg sejati

Melayang ku terbang berenang di awan
Tak akan kita kan lepas dan jatuh sekarang
Cinta, sang cinta, kita kan terus mencinta

Repeat *
Repeat reff

It’s the way you make me smile…

Have u ever felt that out of the blue when u’re all alone and all of a sudden you start smiling to yourself? Ya…I’m sure a lot of you have been thru that…and recently, its been happening a lot to me..;) am I going kuku?..only God knows, hehe, but then again, who knows, I may be on to something… Its just lil’ things/incidences or a certain someone that crosses my mind that makes me glow. Oh well, can’t complain about being happy…heheheheh..I had an amazing start today, with Digi sending me bonus points , RM60~~ God knows how much I’ve been spending on my credits..hehehe..the rest of the day went on perfect, managed to stay on track with the diet, did an hour of running and managed to stay sane…hehehe

But you know what…I’ve decided, I’m just gonna go with the flow…I mean, we all have things that we wish for, and probably only 35% of us actually gets it, so if what I wish for doesn’t turn the way that I hoped it to be, well at least it did happen to me, and even having that tingling feeling for a short minute is worth while……

So how do I do this?...

So seriously, how do i do this...what should i start with 1st?..hehehe..hmmm..suddenly i'm out of ideas. damn, that was quick....hehehe..i thought by now i would've had lots to write about since i have been wanting to have my own blog for what?..the past 2 yrs?...i've always thought that life was passing me by so quickly that i want to write things down so that i'd have a record of all the things that i've been up to...the Ups the Downs and the In Betweens...hheheheh...and especially about my weight loss journey, something that I've been wanting to do for the past God knows how many donkey years....ya ya,i know some of you are nodding at this...heheh..sorry babes, i know i've been a pain in the @$$ and thank you for sticking by me and not giving up on motivating me... ...but this time its for real, I am sick of being overweight, and i need all the help that i can get...so are u with me?...Here we go... ;)

What made me change my mind, you may ask....actually it has been on my mind for quite some time now. Its just that i've been so in denial that it sucks....ya, I mean, seriously, lets face it, ya, inner beauty is one thing,being someone who's great to hang out with is another, but when u're fat, u're never looked at, not that way.... Sad aint it? Not anymore. Thats it, Time for a change..and you know whats so great about this "change"?? The fact that this is something that is in my circle of control and I can do something about it.Why bother wasting more time, thinking and holding on to things that is not in my circle of control and obviously not worth my time??Yup!!..Instead of waiting for things to happen, its time that i get on my ass to make things happen. I am my own responsibility, not others, and failure is not an option...

oh, i got a msg...wuhuuu....ok gtg....will continue this tomorrow?..see you..;)